Down in the dumps - dont even feel like gardening.

[heebiejeebie]

I went through an anger-tears-exhaustion cycle a couple of years ago until my OH made a deal with me that ended up with me at the GP. I expected to be told to take some iron and B12 and pull myself together but I got signed off work and told to have a rest. Result - much better!

We all have bad days, and bad weeks, but if you end up having bad months then get some help.

[jackie j]

Farmer giles sorry to hear that your daughter wants to live with her mother. Just keep the door open as im sure you will. I split with my first Oh and my boys spent weekends with him, or rather his parents now they are older they realise who has been there for them the most and always come to me first if they need anything as their dad has let them down so many times. He would always do anything for his step children but nothing for his own kids, I could never say anything about him as they used to defend him to the end, but now the tables have turned and they support me in so many ways.

[Flummery]

Went to sleep yesterday afternoon and to bed early. I came home from 4 days in the west of Ireland (gorgeous - The Burren is a botanist's paradise!) with a thick throat and by yesterday it had turned into a full fledged head cold. Gallons of boiling snot and everything aches. Bit better today but very wobbly.

FD, I think your problem is related to your recent miscarriage followed by tonsilitis - it would be surprising if you DIDN'T get really down from time to time. However, I would still recommend a GP visit. Don't suffer in silence. (I don't - EVERYONE knows when I'm ill!)

[Finedon.Dandy]

Morning all

I do feel quite a bit better today. Its pouring down with rain here but I am off to church soon (can ask for some guideance eh!) and am looking forward to putting the time to good use in other ways once I get back.

I have a card commission to finish off and hubbie has appologised for not doing the printing I need for it and assures me he will do it this afternoon (he prefers to do it at night so I know he is making a real effort). Once I have finished that off I can deliver and get paid the £12 owed for it! I also have hundreds of butterflies to make for my lil sisters wdding invites but they are so easy to sit and do in front of the telly - just hope Daniel leaves me and the stuff alone or I will have to vacate to another room!

Shopping arriving midday, in time for me needing veggies for Sunday lunch. Was feeling so guilty for spending a little extra at the village butcher to save going shopping then realised I didnt have any of the green stuff so had to do an on-line shop anyway! I do try and support our local butcher when I can (he often shaves a little off the price too) but it means I then have to ask hubbie for cash back (which takes an age after the fight!) as I dont really earn myself - crafters dont get that much back for their efforts.

Anyway here I am rambling on and boring you all, just going to see who won Eurovision and how well Andy did then its off down t'hill!

Take care, much love, thinking of and praying for you Jackie and Farmer Giles,

Tammy

[Catrina]

Hi FD Hope your having a better day today than yesterday. I have days like that as I too have fibromyalgia diagnosed last September. Some days I used to feel like I could barely get out of bed and would cry at anything. My OH used to get really cross with me. The doctor wanted to put me on anti depressants but I resisted. Last Christmas I had 5 treatments with a Bowen Technique Therapist and have not looked back since (Tootles if you want more information get in touch with a PM).

I look at my self feeling like this and then think of my elder sister in Zambia who is looking after my brother in law with last stage pancreatic cancer and realise that I have nothing to complain about. I know that there is always someone worse off than yourself and that doesnt stop you feeling like you do. If you have been feeling like this for a while then you really do need togo and see the doctor. With blood tests she should be able to tell you just what needs to be done. Good luck and chin up.

[Finedon.Dandy]

FD, I think your problem is related to your recent miscarriage followed by tonsilitis - it would be surprising if you DIDN'T get really down from time to time. However, I would still recommend a GP visit. Don't suffer in silence. (I don't - EVERYONE knows when I'm ill!)

Flumm

Deep down I know this; it was the due date of 2nd miscarriage last week and sister was due yesterday so think that subconciously this has unsettled me. I am going to docs next week any way - waited for an appointment in the village as the receptionist is brill and as long as Hannah is with Daniel to help her out a little, she lets me leave kids in reception whilst I go in. It feels odd to me that now I have had more miscarriages than children but am not dwelling on it and know I have come so far when I was a sobbing wreck this time 4 weeks ago - I couldnt even see my way back from communian through my sobs. Now I am looking forward to so many things and I am focusing on these.

Tammy

[squashysu]

Hi Finedon

Glad you feeling a little better today, i am too, apart from the raging stomach and back ache!! 3 guesses! - now i know what i was in tears as well. You are a very brave lady, i have never suffered from the turmoil of a miscarriage, but know lots of people who have and i totally empathise with you and wish you a lovely day, hoping that your optimism will help with the awful weather we are having.

Take care and try and have a lovely day, unfortunately a huge pile of ironing is calling!!

SS x

[Catrina]

Hi Finedon. I am really sorry but I didnt know the back ground with your miscarriages. No wonder you feel like you do. It's nice to have somewhere you can chat and discuss how you feel, even though you have never met everyone they understand and help. I hope you are feeling a little better today.

[NSB]

I was gonna say its probably whats been going the last few months, dont be too hard on yourself x

[petal]

sorry to hear you are feeling low, it will get better with time - if that helps- .
this weather is horrid too - its even dampening my labradors spirits. ooh look bill oddies on that should cheer us all up!

[yoanbob]

sounds like you have been through the mill of late, really dont be too hard on yourself, you are very brave and strong and even strong people need a good cry from time to time.
my advice is, the next time you feel angry, bake a cake, sounds silly I know but you get to take the anger out on the mix which feels GREAT! then have a brew while taking full advantage of the aroma therapy coming from your oven, then you get to eat it!
trust me it helps.
I hope you have a good understanding gp and you feel better soon.
lots of happy thoughts from both of us.
xxx

[Finedon.Dandy]

my advice is, the next time you feel angry, bake a cake, sounds silly I know but you get to take the anger out on the mix which feels GREAT!

Thanks for your kind words. I made muffins (not the american cake thingys) for the first time ever yesterday - really enjoyed kneading the dough - very theraputic! Dont know what "real" / "english" muffins are meant to taste like but we thought they were great - doughy, slightly chewy but ever so light. We had them fresh, hot, split with butter - yummy!!!