Why do i feel like this.

[phil the shed]

please forgive me........
i've been around the vine a while dipped in and out of many grapes plight and often thought why oh why talk online.....
and have often been very disparaging to myself of course about things on the forums so firstly please accept my apologies, funny you know but you don't even know who you are but it lifts me a little to know you think it's you and your accepting my appology.

some six years ago i was hospitalised by a passing gall stone which gave me a very bad infection renal problem and pancreatitis..... the off shoot is i am now a diabetic...
but for the last few days i seem at the end of my tether. my sugar is ok the tablets and insulin get me down at the moment. i don't eat my own jams and chutneys and my special ones don't exactly light me up...
i've got a great wife and 3 wonderful kids i have a job which is pretty secure so why do i feel so fudging worthless and really sh@te at the moment
i fell things are upsetting me because they have to just to wind me up

[Nicos]

I think most peeps feel really low at times to be honest and we can even stand back and count our blessings, but even that doesn't cheer us up.
Sometimes a goal/target can boost self esteem.
A feeling of self worth is clearly important.
Have you spoken to your diabetic nurse/Dr- maybe there is a medical reason why you feel like you do?
It's strange to think how lucky we really are to be here ( ie alive) you know cos 100 years ago I'd have certainly have been dead (several times over )by now without the blessings of modern medicine.
I really hope you feel brighter soon- are you able to share your feelings with your wife or a friend, and try and find a way through them?

I send you a big hug x

[HeyWayne]

You feel like this because you're human dude.

Sharing your feelings is nothing to be ashamed of - telling people how you feel can be quite therapeutic ("cathartic" I think is the word). It's not always easy, but it pretty much always helps.

I was having a similar discussion with a colleague not half an hour ago. He's just recovering from a similar back complaint to mine. Long term illness has a habit of trying to beat you down. Bouncing back is what humans do best.

I think there's an old saying which goes something along the lines of - "you have to experience the bad to appreciate the good".

[piskieinboots]

oh heck - sorry to hear you are feeling so down, I shall say something stupid and obvious now - it will pass!

I am a generally upbeat kinda gal, but things do get me down at times and I have found that trying to remain upbeat when one isn't actually feeling it is bl**dy hard work and counter-productive.

So - I have learnt to just roll with the rotten and allow my self to feel down and then to smile at the good when it comes around.

Chin up lad

[SlugLobber]

Can't add to what has already been said, really, but have a hug. ((())). I also get depressed from time to time and don't even have a debilitating illness (can't really class Raynauds!). Hope you feel better, soon and I agree, maybe talk to your diabetic nurse/consultant. It may be that the balance is a bit off with the meds.

[scarey55]

I'm so sorry to hear that you are feeling sh1te and I hope it will pass. I'm not sure what to say to you that will help but, well done for mentioning it. I am sending you hugs and a little bit of information I found out about :

Jerusalem artichokes:- (scroll down for the text)

They are supposed to help with a diabetic diet and...
if that doesn't work you can just fart on anyone who annoys you

[Nicos]

if that doesn't work you can just fart on anyone who annoys you

...Brill !!!...well that's certainly tickled my giggle button!!

[Headfry]

I am sorry to hear you are feeling so down at the moment. You have had much good advice and kind words form the guys here- I would like to add my very best wishes to you and hope you start to feel better and brighter soon.

[FROSTYFRECKLE]

You are allowed to feel like pooh. Day in, day out you deal with a chronic condition which (fingers crossed is stable and remains stable) must be flaming well annoying - all the wee things that you have to miss out on - the jams etc - all insignificant yet over time will wear you down. So allow yourself to wallow a bit and also enjoy the good parts of your life. Big hugs.

[jackie j]

Best wishes that whatever is going on soon passes, my OH was diagnosed with type 2 diabeties a couple of years ago, add to that he is vegetarian and very fussy about how things are cooked. He also snores for england and has been diagnosed with sleep apnia and now has to use a cpap machine at night.

[phil the shed]

thanks he says (with tear in his eye)
i'll get me coat i've done enough wallowing for today........
the problem is i don't know what triggers it
something just sends me spiralling and when your a loudish outgoing person who works with and for people/client it's damn hard putting on a show everytime it happens.
today just seemed really bad perhaps sharing it has eased things today
thanks grapes

[piskieinboots]

feel free to have a rant in here anytime - if it annoys others (which I know it won't) feel free to PM me your rant, always safer to get it out of your mind and body

[phil the shed]

feel free to have a rant in here anytime - if it annoys others (which I know it won't) feel free to PM me your rant, always safer to get it out of your mind and body

piskie thats kind but you have enough on your mind with SD away
thanks though it helps me know i ain't alone but it's dead hard to get out of the dark

[piskieinboots]

...but it's dead hard to get out of the dark

hold this for now until it passes

[HeyWayne]

thanks though it helps me know i ain't alone but it's dead hard to get out of the dark

I've got a 6 Cell Maglite you can use if you like?

If it's not bright enough it makes an excellent cosh.