Why do i feel like this.

[HotStuff]

Phil,

Having been diagnosed diabetic almost 20 years ago I can sympathise with how you feel. Sometimes I just feel like I want to take a holiday from everything, including the tabs & jabs. As poeple have already said, it will pass, but it's diificult to believe that sometimes when you're plumbing the depths. If there's anything I can do to help PM me.

[Hilary B]

piskie thats kind but you have enough on your mind with SD away
thanks though it helps me know i ain't alone but it's dead hard to get out of the dark

One thing I found that helps is having something ELSE to fret about, something that isn't MINE.
It always got me down when I felt low, and an offer to help, or lend an ear, was turned down because "you've got enough problems". Yeah, I wanted to get away from them for a while, by thinking about someone else's problems!!!
Maybe it's just me, but I always found that trying to be helpful is the best thing when you feel useless, or lonely, or miserable.

[piskieinboots]

now just remember Chef

FOOD DOESN'T GET ANY BETTER THAN THIS

see, things could be way worse, you could be working with MasterShout - cor blimey, he makes my ears bleed

[Two_Sheds]

the problem is i don't know what triggers it
something just sends me spiralling ...

That's depression: you don't ask for it, you don't deserve it. It just comes. It could be a chemical imbalance in your brain, it could be a reaction to your illness.
It ain't your fault, but you've recognised it now, so you can see your GP and discuss what to do about it.
Pills may not be the answer .. you may decide to just recognise the blues when they come, and battle through them.
Ease up on yourself, do something nice

[bobleponge]

Nothing I can add thats not already been said, but just to wish you a speedy "feel better soon".

Thoughts from my head about Phil and his Shed.

[HayleyB]

I can't really add anything of help but the vine is a good place to get a smile a day.. Keep going, as they say "Always look on the bright side of life, de dum, de dum, de dum, de dum...." (was that enough de dums )

[SarzWix]

(((((hugs))))) Phil. I've had some crap times with my head, sometimes caused by circumstances, sometimes meds, sometimes there doesn't seem to be any good reason at all. The one thing that always helps me, regardless of cause, is exercise. Especially a walk in a really lovely place. Gets the endorphins going which lift your mood, and lifts the soul a little looking outside yourself at the big wide world.
Best thing is, it never lasts forever, even if the illness/condition doesn't go away.

I know you have to be careful what you eat, but a tiny bit of some of these might just help lift your mood?
Buy Chocolate with Less Sugar & More Cocoa from Hotel Chocolat

[zazen999]

I don't think it has the same effect on chaps Sarz, than it does on us girlies.

Phil; you're a good chap and I hope you are feeling better soon. Often, it really is just a chemical imbalance; which is why us ladies need the choccie to even us out [or an excuse to keep trying to even us out].

I would quote Beavis and Butthead but
a - I'm off out the door in 2 seconds for college
and
b - Wayne has already used my B&B quote....

[Incy]

I agree with what's been said here and I too use the 'help someone else so you're not thinking about your own misery' method. It really works for me. Sarz is right too about exercise it's really helpful to go for a walk or some other such activity.
Big hugs and I hope you feel better soon!

[basketcase]

I can't really add anything of help but the vine is a good place to get a smile a day.. Keep going, as they say "Always look on the bright side of life, de dum, de dum, de dum, de dum...." (was that enough de dums )

You were I 'dum' short at the beginning I think. Dum. De dum, de dum, de dum, de dum..." No?

[basketcase]

On a serious note, Phil. My son developed Type 1 diabetes at 22 and he sometimes feels down for no apparent reason too. And it is an imbablance when that happens - not much, but it doesn't need to be much to make you feel carppy!

Have a word with your nurse at the diabetic clinic. When you say that you can't have any of your jams and chutneys, you may be being a bit draconian. He was. Just an idea - sometimes a VERY little of what you fancy does do you good.

Like others have said, feel free to PM me to let off steam. I may not be there to pick it up straight away - but I'll be thinking of you!

[pip1954]

hi phil
i to am going though a strange time i just feel cheesed of all the time ,most of the time people keep on about depression a couple of years ago i had a breakdown i fell to pieces i was working long hours at a crap firm then my dad got cancer i watched him die very slowly and that was my lot, well i got better with the help of drugs o i for got to mention i also had a back problem for 15 years or more till it ended in a spinal fusion a couple of years after my dad died which was ment to sort me out but it has not after many years of pills i am now on patches sorry i ramble but i do have a good idea where your coming from sometimes you hurt the ones you love around you ,
i am just waiting to retire but i have ten years yet i now work for another crap set up but i get cheesed of very quick it wont take much to start me off then the black comes down and takes a long time to shift,
people are right in the end it is you who have to help yourself not easy when you feel crap,
if you feel to bad go chat to your doc and get some drugs they can help lift your mood
i realy hope you feel better soon if you feel you want pm me.
pip

[rustylady]

Please have a talk with your GP or diabetes nurse Phil. It may be that your drugs need adjusting, or you could be clinically depressed. Either way it needs looking at - if you don't tell them how you're feeling they can't help. Please feel free to have a moan here on the Vine if you need to, we all try to support each other as much as we can.

[Bagpuss]

"Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant; they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexatious to the spirit. If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter, for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time. Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment, it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy".

Desiderata, Max Ehrmann

[dexterdoglancashire]

Sorry to hear you are feeling down mate. I can't really add much to what everyone else has put, except we are all here if you need to chat. Take care. Love Bernie and Dexterdog