Taking stock

[Veggiemama]

Well, because i haven't been well recently (since feb/March time)
I have been taking stock....

Oh and the boys have gone to granny's house at the beach (mil and FIL's house)

I have had time to get organised... BUT i am a bit like a woman possessed.

I am sorting the whole house out just in case...............

The garden is doing fine. We have had rain so all plants are being watered and i have watered the polytunnel and the pots...BUT not done anything else outside...not because of the rain...BUT because i feel that i should get everything in order just in case...

If i am honest, i am really worried I have no idea whats wrong with me....the doctor doesn't know what is wrong with me... continuous tests etc and so on.

I have a doctors app. next Wednesday when i have to have my bloods taken again after i have taken these 2 courses of anti biotics. So fingers crossed my white cells will be normal again. My smear test which showed borderline changes wont be repeated until end of August.

So, i have looked over my life and have come to the conclusion that i have had a very good/educational/ productive life. I don't want it to end.

I am gonna do whatever it takes to stay healthy ( I actually live a very healthy lifestyle)

It did get me thinking though, how i can enrich my children's lives. I teach them at home( they do go to school, but need extra help at home too) , we grow our own veg, we have fun days together. I suppose the one thing i 'don't enough of is............................take enough photos of them and actually print them out. I have many photos on the computer, but while sorting through things this weekend, i think i have more on the computer than displayed as photos( if you see what i mean)

My question is....what else do you think i could do to enrich my children's lives while i am still around???

I dont want this to be a morbid thread, but a celebration of life IYSWIM


I want to enjoy/prepare/make the most of what i have while i have it.

If i turn out to be fine....it won't matter, as this is something i wish to do all the time.

Thank you for reading this far and my thanks in advance to any suggestions.

Hugs
VM

[gemsplus2]

sorry im a newbie here but i didnt want to read and run.
firstly ((hugs)) to you. it sounds like you have certainly been through the mill the last few months.

i think you are doing a very grand job in regards to your family and by taking them into consideration you are already enriching their lives. i guess whether we have 5 minutes or 50 years we still wonder whether we have done enough or are doing enough. of course we are but when faced with something so huge it does make us doubt ourselves.

you are doing so so much for them already. i dont know what your problem is (and i dont mean to pry) but i have to go for tests at the hospital on monday as my bowel just doesnt seem to be functioning right. i also suffer reccurring ovarian cysts and one burst whilst i was at butlins with my family resulting in me missing the day. i felt really guilty but you know when i came home we went into the garden got the paints out and had a great time getting messy.

but all our children need is the knowledge we love them. and i think yours know that.
just small things like reading a story (sorry i dont know your childrens ages) going for a walk, doing some baking is all they really want. i am sorry if i have stuck my oar in but i hope the tests come back fine and just stay positive. xxxxx

[rustylady]

Hi Veggiemama. Sorry to hear of your problems and worries - I hope everything turns out OK. As Gems said, I think you've done a fine job with your children. I think the most important thing we can give them is love and attention. You obviously spend a lot of time with them and do lots of things together.